And out of good still to find means of evil.

2007-11-07T01:00:00.000-08:00

LOL!! After soooo LONG i FINALLY found my camera USB CABLE!!! haha.... so now i can upload the fotos on grad day is like one mth ago??? How time files past ah... 1 mth gone and we are reaching the end of our O level...one more paper to go and we are all FREE!!!! Anyway... i will upload the fotos now...

Pic of petrina & me outside General Office

Pic of alicia & me outside General Office

I wanted to find Pei Qi and take a foto with her one.... but i could not find her....so in the end..

We took at other places after finding her for sooo long....

I was suppose to have duty at the chapel with chee chuan also...but in the end coz busy taking pic... after i was done cc was so pissed off that i took sooo long...so after tat i say sorry and we rushed to the chapel..

Not really nice (me) coz very tired le... LOL... :p

Then at the chapel, i saw si en! She came to help us.. lol...so is like i wont be seeing her also so i took this opportunity to ask johnson and help us to take a pic.

Mr Choo mending the PA System, and took a snap shot of him.. when he realise it, he was looking at me with funny face... LOL..

Pic with Mr Lau, my best geo teacher. comes to study, will be serious, comes to relax, he can be fun and humourous, can sing and dance for us. He's the Best.

Then after all these, mr choo went up to the stage and sing.. i took the video, but the quality is not good, very blur and the sound is soft too... But better than nth rite. :p

This should be the 1st part , something was wrong with my cam so i was only able to record a few sec each...

this is the 2nd part. the next one will be the last part.

then after a while, is time for ur to rake our prelim results and buffet... Miss chiong chew peng gave us a book that contain out phrase for freedom and pics... it was great... and i went ard asking teachers to help me wrote autograph...then i went to tool pic with other teachers at the refreshment there with shu ting and rachel too. then we back to class took our results and is photo-taking time again!

Pic with Mrs Teo my chem teacher, a loving, friendly warm person

Rachel & Shu Ting with Mrs Teo

Another pic of Mr Choo, and of course with me inside this time
:P *Note e height difference lol....

a grp foto, Starting from left, liying, rachel, shu ting, me. eileen, suzanne

pic of alvin, me, alan

class boys and form teacher aka zookeeper, Ms Ang

Just another grp foto.

chong cheng and me

ya, i guess that;s all for today.

2007-10-11T07:09:00.001-07:00

LOL..... I still cant find my camera USB cable... so sianz...then cannot upload my fotos on graduation day lol... anyway, i'm sure i will find it ONE DAY.... haha.... :p

Lately, been busy preparing for my O level exam.. everyday going to sch till late afternoon then cum home... now muz chiong all the way..mus do well for my O levels... My last last BIG exam afterall... must give it my all... COUNTDOWN TO O LEVEL: 6 DAYS TO SCI PRATICAL, 12 DAYS TO SCI WRITTEN PAPER!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!! just bout one more week or so le... really must work hard ah!!!

But counting down to O level is soo stress... N level was better lol.. haha... i keep telling suzanne not to be stress... but myself also very stress lol... study study study but cannot go inside my brain.... is so bad....so stress out so tired... i'm sure i going to collapse after O LEVEL.... LOL.. haha... :p

But still, to all, pls study hard...after all is the last exam of sec sch life, really happy to have known you guys... you all was great. sec sch life would be so boring without you all. Thanks for coming intp my life, help my life to light up and brighten my sec sch days... I wont forget all of you and will always cherish those memories we shared together...although i have been stubborn and sth irritating, thanks for tolerating me after all... Maybe is sill too early to say all these after all we are meeting again on Grad Nite. LOL.... But is alright...

2007-10-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

GRADUATION DAY! 5 OCT 2007!!

2007-10-05T04:44:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS GRADUATION DAY!!!

Reach sch at 655am coz muz set up pa system and meet up wif chee chuan to set chapel thingy.... then i wait till 725 then then i saw chee chuan!! He very late ah..some more he was the one who say want to meet early one then in the end he cum late... LOL... then chee chuan made jelly, he gave it to sec 3s... knw wat they say.... you made one ah.. safe to eat mah??? LOL that muz hurt chee chuan... then my 2 juniors came bouncing up to me and gave me letter le..farewell letter la.... the two of then are adeline and xin ying!!! THANKY YOU SO MUCH!

Then in the end, busy the whole day doing pa....

But still, it was a memorable day... I still went up to get award for academic ( Top in Humanities) & AVA (PA). Yanti, chris, wenting, gladys also got take award...top in class i think... then Joren got an award for not giving up, suzanne is Ms Helpful, Yi Yuan is MR SUNSHINE LOL.... (anyone i miss out dont blame me kay.. :p) Cant believe yi yuan got sunshine award... lol.... juz my thinking la... Then when i was mending the pa system, Mr Choo told me i got a A2 for my CCA!!!!! YA!!! From C6 to A2 le!!! SO HAPPY!!!

then after that we took fotos....(LOTS) then went for the buffet then went back to class to take report book... When i got back my results slip, i cant Believe i got a 15 for my L1R4!!! SO surprising LOL...

~FLASHBACK~

I knw i heard an award for 15 pts and below for L1R4... I got a 15...why am i not included???

~END FLASHBACK~

Then i went to ask chong zheng... he say nvm mind jus give myself encouragment can le... haha.. very logical rite...
then after that....everyone went home or go out... as for me i went to AMK Library to study till 7 plus... once i reach home i write blog le.... so good rite.. haha... you all muz be thinking, " grad day still go study act only la.." correct.... lol.. never mind wont take it to heart one... i will be uploading fotos tml or in the few days... coz i cant find my USB Cable!!! Argh!! Once i find iy i will upload it...

Last but not least, everyone of 5 Agape 2007, all the best for your O levels and may you find the school and course of your choice, all the best for your future endeavours!

Chew Sung

2007-09-29T19:39:00.000-07:00

Got so much things to say today...but dont knw where to start from....
let's start from prelim results bah... i fail two of my subjects lol.. so sad la...i fail my math which i think i could pass...i knw i would fail my paper one but not up to the point that the marks are so low...then came paper 2, i knew i could pass coz i knw how to do the paper....but so sad... i fail my paper 2 too.... it makes me wonder..why have i put in so much effort of my time practiing math but still fail in the end..what's the point? And now after getting back prelim results, i dont even fail like doing and practicing math le.. is just so demoralized and depressing la... now i dont even want to care abt the O Level.....so tired le...

THen another thing, last time when i talk to Ms cheong abt dropping acc... she said okay, she dont mind me dropping acc. Now, after getting back prelim results, she said i got improved. So once again i went back to thinking should i drop or not... so the best way was to ask ms cheong...since she teaches me acc...so i went and you knw wat she say, No No i dont want to discuss this issue with you..then for the nest 2 days whenever i approaches her, she will say she dont want to discuss the issue with me. i mean WHAT THE HELL la, cant i find her for other reason other than that! And what's more i jus want ADVICE!!! ADVICE AH!!! so she tell me go ask my form teacher ms ang..so i went...i haven finish..she already she dont allow me to drop saying i only got so few subjects...cannot drop, definitely cannot drop...with that she walk off...

So 3 days ago i left my phy 25 year series (my cousin gave it to me) in acc clas.. i went to ask ms cheon if she had seen it but the first thing she said was i dont want to discuss the issue with you. WTF la! She think i only got the to talk abt meh! So frustrated with her after that... then the next day, in class she came ove to me and said the issue is settled ms ang talked to me abt it le. LOL...Must she say that ever now and then? like i dont knw like that i was the one who went to ask lol.... i really really hate ms cheong a lot sometimes..althouh is most of the times la..haha... anyway that;s was it...so now i still wondering should i drop or not since my teachers are soooo responsible abt it.

Now the O level is approaching..and i dont even feel like studying..still watching anime every now and then is jus so sianz la..cannot study at all... no mood to study also... jus feel so sianz jus want to lay down and rest not bothering abt studiesa and studies and exam and results and poly..... so stress ah but nobody knw all thought i so relaxed coz i in front of com playing and watching lol... okay la..enough talking le.. should stop le...Bye bye!

2007-09-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

lately, i'm so unhappy....
got a lot of things troubling me..so feel very unhappy....
like tml is class outing..coz after prelim...that's why...
but it cost $9.50..no $$ go also... haha
initially i thought sheron and yanti going so i was intending to go also
thought that i would at least have a company there...
but then yanti msg me and tell me she not going... and sheron not going too...
at the point of time i feel really angry why didnt they tell me eariler that they are not going?
am i not one of them?
do i not exist...
or i dont mean anything to them at all..coz i was wondering, if i am not going i will definitely tell my friends abt it... but yet they didnt, last min i ask them wat they wearing then they tell me...lol...i was so sad abt it la....
i feel like i'm nothing to them, just someone will be there when is break time...and nothing more... how would you feel if you was me... anyway that's was it lol...

2007-08-12T07:19:00.000-07:00

If this was a drama or a comic, their deaths wouldn't be mourned, they're just a bit characters.
"Death" is just an ingredient in the story.
However,
if someone dies, there is always someone who will cry for them.
There is a bond that cannot be broken with the people you've interacted with, from birth to death.
Main character or bit character, it's proof that they were alive.
(extract from one anime) =p

2007-07-05T04:02:00.000-07:00

Finally, after so long.. i'm finally blogging. HAHA!
I got so much things to say..but dont knw where to begin frm...

On wednesday, we had out chapel session... What mrs tan says make me think lot..
she say that how would u feel if you are talking yet that someone isnt listening to you? You will feel like a clown, rite...
that set me thinking...and i do feel that i'm always a clown...coz is like everytime i'm talking... they wont listen to me...so i will repeat myself a dozen times jus for them to listen to what i;m talking bout, i dont care if they think i'm irritating... sometimes when they walk away... i will stop and walk away.. and become anti-social....

On PTC that day, ms ang told my mum that i have been more cheerful and hang ard with friends more.. i joke and laugh... and ms ang say i'm happy...

but am i truly happy? i dont think so... Happy cum from the heart, but me.. is fake..i never really truly felt happy being with my friends... cause i dont think i suit them... i can fit their group... is soo hard to bear it.. so sth i will becum real quiet and jus sit there thinking abt all kinds of things...

Then slowly...become anti-social again..lol....
then i will talk to myself... Like i'm a nutcase.. crazy.. insane.. but by doing tat, i feel relieved... i dont knw why.. but i jus feel jus that... okay..time for tution gtg... bb...will blog again very soon...

2007-05-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

It been so long since i last blog...
Time sure fly fast when you dont notice it....
1 more day and it will be the daywhen i take O level MTL...
and ya..i didnt do any practice yet..haha....is not that i'm confident or whatsoever..
In fact i, frightened...haha...you guy sprobably wont believe it..
you guys will cprobably think that a chi pro scared of takeing chi exams? that's juz bullshit..isnt it..in fact i sure am frightened as hell...

lately i was so depressed...but no one knows anyway...My grandfather passed away in may...
yet now i still cant get over it...i cry whenever i think of him and how he died....
tears flowing out of my eyes...
is was exam time when he passed away..so i not saying that if i get poor results is his fault...
juz....sad....

then when i got back to school...i really feel like i seemed invisible to my friends..so now i not eating during break time i wi ll go walk walk go lobrary study lol..orsth stay with them watching them eat... haha...

anyway...i having pa camp on the 11th...and i got a hunch that i will be extra and invisible to them..haha...know why coz it always happens and it made me not to think that maybe i should jus go home isnt it...haha...still got a tons of things to say..

juz one more thing...from now onwards i wont believe in any gods. noie why coz i asked them not to let my grandfather die but they did...i was so upset even though i say i would gladly give up some of my lifespan for him...but then i will try my best to still believe in them....

they crashed my hope when i needed them, when i was in the darkest pit of my life...know sth guys...didnt i always say that i like deathangel deathgods all these kind of thing and now i really believe that maybe i'm one them.. two times in my life i witness death..and 2 time i was there...till they died...am i cursed or wat? i dont know...haha...maybe i'm jus thinking too much lol..haha.... but them i jus cant help it... ok then no more talking time to study *if i can anyway* lol haha...

2007-04-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

is been so long since i posted a new post. so now i'am posting one, exams coming in 2 weeks time and i haven even study yet. Just not in the mood to study lol...jus like is so sianz la.. another exam coming and i need to study like siao again . but then this time, i haven even study yet...lol...haven even go and touch the book, i jus knw how to waste my time continue to stare at the com doing some blogging and watching anime lol.. haha... anyway, just to say that la....haha...will post more tml i think actually i got a lot of things to say one..but then le..suddenly all forget le..haha... and ya one more thing, i got no one to study with me also.. lol.. :p

My Brithday!!!!!!!

2007-03-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

LOL....today is my bday...25th of march...
tell u guys sth...early in the morning at 6.10, johnson wish me happy birthday lol...at that time i was thinking so early wish me happy birthday ah but i'm glad though...he remembered my bday and wish me happy birthday while i forgotten his...so bad rite me..but anyway i found out when is his bday le... haha....anyway at first i though he was not sleeping lol... but then i while chatting he told me he going back to sleep... -_-''' hmm..it made me wonder did he wake up in the morning juz to wish me happy birthday??? but then still i'm happy haha...so here, thanks johnson for waking up in the morning at 6.10am wishing me happy birthday.

Next was suzanne at 9.31am...lol...is still so early and i was still sleeping la...but then i did reply to say thanks to here haha..next was eileen, yanti, pamela, sheron, rachel then chen ning.. lol...i didnt expect pamela to msg me and wish me happy birthday coz u see i not really close with her, that's why i was surprised. regardless of that i'm happy. :) i think yi wei wish me happy birthday too...cant really remember... lol..sorry..

today was a very happy day! first time so many ppl wish me happy birthday, haha... and also my family was all present exept for my father who was sleeping and didnt know today wa my bday...now is already 11.50pm.. another 10 more mins and my bday is over lol.. anyway...today was a great day!

Thanks everyone for letting me enjoy such a great and wonderful day on my bday!!
Thanks min na!!! :)

2007-03-14T02:04:00.000-07:00

hey ppl. i think it been a long time since i blog. but then the last time i blog was like 7th of march. actually it wasnt such a long time after al...anyway the reason i'm bloggin today is jus to tell you guys about the pa camp i went to yesterday.

i went to school at ard 4 plus i think. But anyway, but the time i reach there the sec4 was already bbqing. so i started mine too lol...i took some prawns and put a los of chilli on it...then i went to bbq it. how to say le, it tastes great, it was spicy enough and it smells great. and it look good. haha. i bbq one mah..lol...anyway, after that i went to try out some fish fillet. how to say it, it was fantastic lol. it taste great, smell great and look good and it was jus spicy enough. Again, of course la, i bbq one mah, of course it would taste great..haha...very bu yao nian hor. anyway. that's the truth. haha..

after that ard evening time, the pizza came & i ate one. lol.. then ard 6 plus ba...the senior or rather the graduate came... then i saw wen zhang lol...didnt know he's coming then never bring the cd return him..haiz..miss a chance to return him the cd again...haiz...anyway, yap zhong, jia reu, byran, wen zhang, brenda, zoee and gee heng(i think) came lol...it was soo crowded and fun la...1st time, i see pa got so many ppl, and quite heartwarming bah i think..

then we play banana peel, jia rui lead lo...haha...it was so funny that i jus could not stop la... then the juniors got to do it too..only those that lose during the previous gamne la..twister i think. if i'm not wrong la... lo....i think i will stop here now...got to go eat dinner le... haha...... :)

2007-03-07T00:27:00.000-08:00

today was a really bad afternoon for me. i got poa tution this afternoon you see. let me tell you why i had a bad afternoon.
i thought that the tution were going to start at 3pm. so i went there at 3pm. when i walked in, i heard ms cheong say, i never going to entertain someone who is late. so she say again, if you want to sit in, sit in if not go out. so of course i sit in who knows wat she will say if i didnt sit in. so i went to sit down, pull a chair and like sitting behind yiyuan and beside simin like that, but the whole group was in fron of me. so i was kinda like isolate

then "we" were told to reconcil the clas test control acc. but i didnt have the class test paper with me so if i was like i was sitting there staring in space. then ms cheong hp went beep juz as i was abt to ask for my class test paper. so after that, ms chein realised i was "there" so she say why i not doing then i replied, i dont have e paper wat. then she continued, like if i didnt heard wrong if was so rude then sth one, then she look at me then look away(like DIAO me like that) saying sth, but didnt heard what it was. so after that she hand me the paper and ya i start doing,

and ya guess what. ms cheong asked everyone whether they can balance or not except for me. so i was kinda feeling really not existing there at all.. jus invisible.

after like 15mins....then we go through double entry, so this time the same i not "there'', juz invisible. but then i still got do the double entry when she say the Qns la....it was like until the 3rd Qns then she say, chewsung i haven look at ur ans yet. so i show her then she say to everone, why you all always do opp one ah?

then the lesson continue as it is...me sth becoming non-existing la...juz to be expected..then after a while we all went home. then i went to take my report book to let her sign czuse the marks wrong side. then she say in a very irritated voice, i wont sign it, nvm mind one, i told miss and and other teacher le. then she continue saying sth regarding 5A. (but i forget what it is le)

ya so, she made my afternoon bad, is not like i knew that tution changed to immediately after school. i only knew is 3pm. so is it my wrong for not knowing that she changed the time and is it my fault to being stupid cause i didnt go check out the time? didnt know she changed the time so the thing become my fault, so i deserved to be invisible and a non-existent human being there in her tution class la.

after that i was so angry that i hit my fist against the wall several time till the knuckles became red and i think i scratch some skin off..haha..who will care anyway since i dont even care... drop dead rite now lol...haha and one more thing, i didnt go to the sport heats becaise of her, ms cheong!!!!! argh, i sooo pissed off now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE HELL AM I TOLERATING ALL THIS FOR?

2007-03-04T05:23:00.000-08:00

lately, i got so many unhappy things...wanted to say it all out a long time ago, nut only now that i got a chance to use the computer and able to pur my woes here.

firstly, let's talk abt wat troubling me in school. to let you guys know, i'm working with my friend called P. is a girl k. every time we will go to work together. but then lately, she's quite busy so cant work on the same day with me. so i will ask her everytime like what's on her programme list on that day and why isnt she working. But then, she and another friend will always say that, never mind one what you can work alone one. no need everytime need someone pai ni one. so i was thinking, WHAT THE HELL!!!! did i say that or wat? no i didnt! FOR THE 1ST TIME SHE DIDNT WORK TOGETHER WITH ME, SHE GAVE ME LAT MIN NOTICE, SO I WAS KINDA ANGRY AND SAY SHE PS ME. so after that whenever i ask her why she not working, she and the other friend called B will always say that to me. so can u imagine how angry and irritated i am to hear that from them all the time. i really really WANT TO SCOLD THEM OUT LOUD!!!!!

but i didnt, also dont knw why. then still got one more thing, this friend called B always irritate me. and i hate it to the core. take an eg. every time during math lesson, B will never bring her tb coz she say too heavy and lazy to bring. so on a particular day, we were asked to do hw on exercises in the tb. so she say i forgot to brong tb, can share. then i reply in a kind a annoyed tone, huh...you never bring tb again ah... guess what she say. i only forgotten to bring not dun wan to bring on purpose. dun wan to share then dun share la..

so i was thinkg again WHO THE HELL YOU THINK YOU ARE, AND WHAT THE HELL IS GOING THROUGH UR MOND? I GOT SAY I DUN WAN SHARE AH! SO I THOUGHT I DUN WAN TO ARGUE WITH A PERSON LIKE YOU IDIOT!

and for the rest of the day i never talk to her or look at her. so i think she know that i was angry. but then she like very on purpose. when i asked my friend why she not working, she talked back in a very hateful tone.( see text above to know wat she talked back. she is called B)

then that's not all. during work i got a friend called A and X. a gal and a boy.
A is using a prepaid sim card(singtel) so she like got lend me cd one la..but then that;s one thing i hate abt her, send her 10 msgs she will reply to me abt 1 or 2. and yet is a very long time of waiting. i know she gotta work till 11pm. so i will usually msg ard that time or before she go to work. but sth, she never reply. which piss me off a lot. X say that i should listen more to others and not talked to others. ya, i know i got that kind of habit of talking back. but then i trying to change lol. is juz that i really hate it when i msg somebody, they wont in HELL reply. i also trying not to talk back more la. but i'm wondering now that who did i talk back to on that working day when X said that piece of advice to me. X was telling me that maybe i dont think that i'm talking back, but that person might think i'm doing so..

so i was like thinking to myself again, if this and that wont do. why dont you tell me to shut up and jus listen? is juz dont make sense lol. and a met with an accident when i was working.

the long big heavy plastic board that is used for cutting foods hit me in the hips. i immediatelt squat down and was abt to cry, nobody say anything comfprting thing to me except G, he asked me i was okay or not. grateful for that really. A was there saying like ther only ah? can you imagine her saying that LIKE THAT ONLY AH? what the hell! she thnk not pain ah? is hurts like hell la.. but then after that i still mop the floor la.. only one "column" though. althogh i'm suppose to mop the whole floor.

so i was thinking, what the hell is happening to my life? is heaven playing a trick on me or wat knowing that i going to die at the age of 20? (true or false? think urself. LOL)

that all for today then. bye everyone!

2007-02-08T00:55:00.000-08:00

haiz...today chinese common test...then i sick..keep coughing in class la...feel i'm soooo irritating to the class...disturbing their concentration for the paper lol....feel so bad now....juz cant stop coughing la...hate it soo much..argh...why am i sick!

anyway, the chinese paper today was quite diffcult lo....but then i feel i did okay la...although got a lot of words i don knw how to read...but then still can meng hun guo qu la....haha...also tml afternoon having chemistry test....start at ard 2 ba....so late lol..in the afternoon again..so sianz la..students so tired le still want them afternoon take test. burn up all our brain cells... :p

LOL....so sianz now..don feel like taking the chem test or studying lol....i feel that i can flunk my common test lol...is like i can already predict i'm going to fail my maths, poa(coz don understand lol), chem(maybe), ss(keep coughing the whole paper..cannot think la...), geo( on tourism...also keep coughing..think i keep repeating what i wrote.), physics(maybe also.)

LOL...that's it for now...going to ZZZ le...must rest my brain, keep coughing in class juz now that my head hurt la...oh ys, one more thing, in order not to be a muisance to my class, i think i will request to sit outside the class, so even if i cough, the sound wont be so loud. then my classmates can concentrate doing their paper. yap, i will ask the teacher tml see i can sit outside or not. LOL...

Question: wat wil u do if you caould live till 20 ONLY?

2007-01-23T02:39:00.000-08:00

Question: wat wil u do if you caould live till 20 ONLY?

okay, that's a damn stupid qns i think up when i was poundering over what the hell am i suppose to do with my life....kay...is not a depress or wat ever shit you know...is real, juz think....

if you are 17 this year...you can only live till 20. what will you do with your life. *It dont matter if you die natrualy or in a damn accident...is juz that you die at the age of 20. you could not even live past your 21st B-Day. so what will you do....

at this point of time, i'm thinking, will i do ah...i will finish my poly, jus nice got 3 years for me to study...i will get a diploma for my family before i pass on.. i will live life tothe fullest even if it means i'm juz wasting my time like now typing and blogging...haha... i will try to made myself happy and the ppl ard me too...i will be good and study hard for the course i choose. i will accept it as my fate or rather destiny if i'm really suppose to die at the age of 20. i will not made my family angry....try not to la...since i only got 3 years left in this world...i will try to do as much things as i like and do the things i have always wanted to do or to be...i will dream everyday of the person i will become when i grow up. *since i wont be able to, i will dream that i'm able to.

Then i will pass on in a place no one willl find me.. i will find a quiet and solitiary place that is only for me, and only me can find it..i will die peacefully looking at the clouds and dream...if is an accident..there's nth more for me to do, other than to wait for it to happen, isnt it... :)

a boring day, a boring life & a boring day of my life...

2007-01-23T02:31:00.000-08:00

BORING.....
BORING.....

Is so damn boring in the freaking evening....that's nothing for me to do...i remember that's hw for to do...but damn it, i dont feel like doing, i feel like sleeping...i'm juz so damn freaking tired....jus want to sleep forever and not wake up...haiz.... is so damn boring that i got nth better to do than to blog and say i'm BORED.... haiz....

Anyway...today, i brought i new storybook...finally a book of my own...is called
"Marley and Me" by jordan. is a great book, i finish 5 chapters soon i brought it...but then is still so damn boring that i'm sitting at the front of my com....typing i'm so super damn BORED....hahaha...funny? Life is so damn boring la....others than made sth out of urself, studying to till you drop dead, eat till you full and sleep . there's not a damn freaking thing to do...kay, i know i'm saying a lot of "freaking damn" thing...but who the hell in the world will care what i write....haiz....maybe there's are othere things in life for me to do...juz that i am not at that age...stupid, stupid damn boring life....

Revolving....

2007-01-07T06:58:00.000-08:00

Revolving...
If fate is a wheel..
Then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.
We are helpless..
All we want is power.
Even if we can't protect others by extending our hands, we desire a blade for those hands to grasp.
The power to crush one's fate must look like a blade swinging down.
Is our power the power to crush fate?
Or will we be swallowed up by these power of ours?

2006-12-18T07:28:00.000-08:00

yo ppl, arent you all glad that we made it to sec 5 together? nobody fail or was retained in our class! (if i'm not wrong though) but then isnt it great that our results are do good, almost all are better than national lol...i got a 6 point and i'm not too happy though.. coz is the same as prelim...anyway..i will work harder next year so as to attain a better result. but firstly, congrulate went ting for being the 1st! and also christ and yanti! and to all my classmates too! and ya that;s all i wanna say so have a sweet dream kay!

2006-12-17T08:01:00.000-08:00

yo ppl, let's see, today is sunday and i'm posting again jus to say the same things agaon la..haha...now is exactly 12am...haha...jus one more day to N level results. are you guys nervous? coz i am lol..so scared my eng wil fail then i will flunk my N level...haiz...but hope i will pass and go to sec 5 and then take my O level lol...but then is still too early to say la..haven even see my N level results yet..haha. but then i still hope to see everyone next year...including myself..haha..lame rite.. but then i still want to see our 4 Blessing class promote as a class lol... after getting the N level results it will not be a time to rest le...we muz strive and get a good result for O levels lol... so everyone, best of luck to all of you and have a sweet dreams and get a good night sleep kay! :)

2006-12-14T07:37:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..suddenly want to post sth on my blog...let's see..the time now is 11:35pm on wednesday 14/12/06...5 more days to N LEvel results.

so here i am wishing everbody good luck and all the best. when the result you are holding laugh all you want and cry for they are tears of joy. If the result is bad. dont be depressed, cry if you have to, dont hold back. of course, it goes for me too. though i doubt that i wont be depressed if my result is bad...haiz...wat am i saying. forget abt it la. :p

jus enjoy urself these few days and play all you want. for next year will be the critrial time for us, we will be taking our O level then, so jia you kay. Play hard Work hard. that's all i want to say though haha. gd nite and all the best!

long time no blog..haha :P

2006-12-03T04:57:00.000-08:00

okay, ppl. today i'am blooging to vent my angers. maybe writing it here isnt such a good idea, but who cares anyway right. :0

i think some of you know that i got a promoter job. the prblem is this, i did a mistake in the promoter job, but i was not so worry abt it cuz i didnt do it on purpose and it didnt cross my mind too. i admit i'm in the wrong la. but then what make me angry was tis. after the mistake, i got no promoter job. but then one day, someone from their company call me and ask if i would like a promoter job but is different form the last one that i do. of course i took it cuz i need money and a job.

He told me to go home and wait for news. so i waited. then the week came when i need to take the AEM course. during one of these courses(day) i called the person. cuz i was not sure i was in the job or not, guess what he say, he say that the only one who are in are those that he called. okay, fine. i'am okay with that. then he said sth that made me sooo angry. he said that he didnt called me cuz my name was diffcult to remember! Bastard! how could he say that, if he doent want to hire me, juz say it, what kind of stupid lame excuse is that! i dint tell anyone this though, the first one i told was Y. she say the same thing as i think before. Maybe i heard wrongly in the phone(though i bet i didnt), but if that's true then i cant bear it! i bet it was ciz of the previous mistake i made that made them dont wanna hire me. But now who cares rite, i juz want to get this off my chest and let off some steam.

And yet i was so stupid to wait for them and wasted my time in looking for a job and earning $! Note, when that man called me he say he needed a lot of ppl so for sure we are going to be hire. then he say he didnt call me cuz my name very diffcult to remember, what kind of BULLSHIT is that man! anyway, i feel better that i have get it off my chest. sorry for all the harsh word like bastard.

2006-10-04T18:47:00.000-07:00

heys, today going study with sheron....at bishan library...studying math and maybe acc lol...so sianz la.. N level...muz study until go siao...then paper cum..easy la...not really easy la..juz that not wat i imagine the questions to be lol...ss, geo, chi, math P1, phy and chem finish le...left math paper 2 and acc paper 1 & 2...siao la..one day test us two paper of acc will go crazy one lol...haiz...anyway..i knw my chem will fail le..haha..coz whole paper dont knw how to do...some still leave blank lol.. :p anyway..i will try my best for acc and math...fail chem can le..i dont wannt fail math and acc too.. mz JIA YOU! :)

2006-10-04T18:42:00.000-07:00

today..mood not so good...yesterday quarrel with mother...haiz...why ah...coz she pack my things then my entry proof gpne missing lol...find until very the wat lol...then i scream at her, tell her go back sleep and dont touch my things in the future....haiz...think bad i very bad hor...she wake up juz to help me find then i still do that to her..haiz...:( anyway...wat done is done lol...cannot undone it anymore...but that point of time, i really want to scream at her lol...but i shouldnt la...she my mother mah..i do that to her very the bu xiao le...but after that everything go back to normal le...haha... :p she went back to sleep and i went to my room and read storyboook... :p but i know i wont do that to her le la...will sin one le...haha... :P

Famous Quotations by famous people...

2006-09-14T02:49:00.000-07:00

suddenly got a urge to find out abt all kinds of quotations in life after wat mrs tan said...these are some that i got from the web...is nice and is true isnt it...is just some only...didnt put all down..coz that;s too much abt life..

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.
By: Isaac Asimov (1920 - 1992)

The secret of a good life is to have the right loyalties and hold them in the right scale of values.
By: Norman Thomas (1884 - 1968)

We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.
By: Sir Winston Churchill (1874 - 1965)

Life is an unbroken succession of false situations.
By: Thornton Wilder (1897 - 1975)

Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all.
By: William Goldman, "The Princess Bride"

Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering - and it's all over much too soon.
By: Woody Allen (1935 - )

The goal of life is living in agreement with nature.
By:Zeno (335 BC - 264 BC), from Diogenes Laertius, Lives of Eminent Philosophers

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.
By:Ben Stein

Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious.
By:Brendan Gill

You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.
By: Barbara Hall, A Summons to New Orleans, 2000

2006-09-11T04:13:00.000-07:00

today was the first day of school after the 1 week holiday...some used that time to slack while others study and study and study...me?? wat do you think, of course...is...slack la...haha... :p watching anime all day long...but got stop and do acc hw la..and do some revision also... as a matter of fact, N level is coming, so cannot slack too much... finally chinese and ss is over 2 weeks ago...since 2 days ago, i have been messing with my bog, changing the skin adding music to it...and all this things drives me nuts especially the TagBoard...spent hours figuring how to get it to the place i want it to be and not in the centre...last night, i went to zzz at 1plus..after FINALLY figuring out, and my blog juz came out the way i wanted it to be... :) but for that, in the evening, i troube somebody to help me make it, and i become very fan to that person, but nonetheless, a Big Thank You to you(the person)..i really appreciate a lot for wat you did...anyway, i have not been blogging for a very long time, so i think is time for me to blog..haha.. :P

today , i went to study with sheron in KFC(ang mo kio)...till 5 plus..she study maths while i study maths and a bit of chem....the rest of the time...slacking..haha...then i meet chze sing, denise and the guzheng one...dont knw her name..dont blame me kay...then after that meet gladys...she sit down and study with sheron for a while...then she went back home...after that i meet petrina, alicia and derek...we chat for a while then i went back to study, and i was pondering on the Qns they asked me, do i like to eat or drink..which one better?? hmm...never think of tat Qns be4..so never and them.. :pthen i went back home..juz a brief acc of wat i did today..be sure to tag me kay...

exams & exams & exams....

2006-07-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys...exams is coming again.. a few more weeks and we have to take out prelim..after 1 month of holiday...feel so lost in my studies now...everthing i have forgotten...haiz...and exams is coming...so sianz...always exams & exams & exams...
but then we still need to work hard for our prelim nevertheless.. so let's do our best and strive for good results for our prelims then prepare for N level eams...haha...anyway..juz wanna say, GOOD LUCK to all taking the prelims..:)

2006-06-27T03:39:00.000-07:00

Ms Jeya Leaving!!!

2006-05-26T06:23:00.000-07:00

heys..people..ms jeya left presbyterian high school today le...
she going to somewhere else...
i will miss her a lot lol...she teaches so good, yet want to leave...so sad to hear it... :(
some of us got take photo wif her, so tat can look at it sometime.. and huai nian ms jeya jiao wo meng de ri zi... :)
those who dont have, no need depress..hee...coz she will always be in our heart rite..
such a good teacher...will miss her...
Here, i wish here all the best in her carrer and life as she goes on...and may every challenges in life she met, she will overcome it & strive for the best in her life.

Yo! people!

2006-05-09T02:17:00.000-07:00

YO!!! Mid-Year is finally over now! We can now get a good rest and then continue to strive for our prelims...haha...anyway, now that's exam is over, let's relax and have fun and come on let's party!!!! :)

Yo! people, mid-year is coming soon... :)

2006-04-27T00:55:00.000-07:00

Yo everybody, mid-year is juz round the corner, so pls study hard and get good results. Although all of you like to play, but then remember to play hard & study hard! That's the main point. Hope that we can all be in the same class next year, nobody retain or have to be out of school. exam is jus 3 days away, so make use of the time and grap the time to study as much as you can. but dont let yourself work so hard that you will collapse. haha.. anyway i will jus stop here first. also have to grap then time and study as much as i can, must pass all subjects!!! and dont let the teachers look down on us, prove to them that blessing is a class that is capable to get good results and not juz have a mouth and talk. we can do it if we have the preservance and determination. Must pass!!!

P.A duty

2006-04-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

wow...yesterday got p.a duty...i 6.35 reach school...when we are suppose to assemble at 6.45!!! Argh...so early reach thought no one will be there... then i very jing ya to see 2 sec 1 ppl there eariler then me le!!! anywhere then i go draw keys..1st time that indian women let me draw le...so yi wai. then after that everybody cum le...then i so sianz.....nth to do lol....li wen and chee chuan say muz let sec 1 do.. so i go up gallery.. then not long later liwen came up and tell me go down..
so bu shuang lol.....but i never say la... i juz zi yan zi yu to amuse myself , saying want me go down there and rot...do nth...haiz..anyway..after a while my bu shuang jiu gone le.. haha...never tell them.. later they say i so petty....:p
then during the hole thing..a lot of things go wrong lol....but i partly is my fault la.. coz i really sit down there and do nth and rot.. never go and check... hai dao gallery de ren teow mae....haiz....then cc keep saying is his fault.. i so guo yi bu qu lol... so sry le...:( then after everything over, we ge zuo ge de coz later still need go stadium..

i go to the stadium with suzanne and liying... but being with them feel so left out..coz the things they talk abt, i have no idea at all.. so the whole journey is i'am quite quiet.. coz got nth to say... then i was thinking that if i was not with them and instead it was eileen, they will be much happier...so to be serious, i quite anti-socio also lol.. but cannot blame me le.. the things they talk abt is rally things i have no idea lol.. like this how to chat???then i feel i very extra... haiz.. then we go stadium, at ard 2 plus.. then liying very li hai, one lolipop can eat for 45 mins!!! wow...so pai fu ta..haha... then at there, i also very quiet.. they talk among themselves while i sit there and rot like hell....then take out magazine then continue to rot....the sports day is really boring like hell lol... pei qi came and look for cc..also that time i have jus woke up from my little nap..so i go sit wif them, then cc keep giving peiqi noggie...then i also have la.. ard 2-3 times...:p anyway i feel that i am happier with them...at least i dont feel out or extra lol... anyway, then the sports day end le..then wo jiu hui jia le.. AND this is the WORST sports day i ever have lol.. is really damn BORING!!!!

clearing something

2006-04-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

hey guys...jus to clear something up... my mum is not sick or suffering from any illness...is juz that f she overwork herself... she will be...

I'am Afraid...Very Afraid....

2006-04-15T23:54:00.001-07:00

I'am Afraid...Very Afraid....Once my mum told me that a doctor tell her that if she faint...she will be gone....these few days...her friend who know how to read palm one.. says that my mum "signal" is coming...asking her not to overwork herself... if not...she will....
Now, I'am Afraid...Very Afraid.... that she will leave me...i dont wanna her to leave me.... i very depend on her... i cant live without her in my life...so i pray and pray to god that dont take my mum away from me so soon... i am willing to give up my lifespan for her juz to let her live a few more years or even more, and may those illness that is gong to be upon her to be transfer to me, i am willing to bear all the pain for her, i can even die for her sake..maybe i am being silly....but i juz cant help it...you all will say death and live is predestined, i cant change it...But i really want to, i want my mum to live a long life and be healthy, without illness.... I'am So Afraid...Very Afraid that she will leave me... I told myself that, if my mum really leave me...i will go with her to accompany her so that she will not feel lonely on her way... :)

Yo! people, the latest show i watch :)

2006-04-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

Lethal Weapons Of Love & Passion--覆雨翻云

What is this story about:
明朝，社會安定。風行烈（林峰飾）雖為蒙古王族後人，但因短暫失憶，對國仇家恨，沒有概念，反培養出逍遙的個性，追求愛情、希望逍遙山林。風行烈為搏紅顏靳冰雲（郭羨妮飾）一笑，決定盜取重現江湖的覆雨劍，結果遇上了韓柏（黃宗澤飾）。

韓柏，燕王府內的小廝，不懂武功，卻因緣際會得到覆雨劍，誰料寶劍被風行烈盜去。韓柏誓要取回寶劍，二人不打不相識。

世事多變，韓柏遇上當世高手赤尊信（郭峰飾）把畢生內力傳授給他，令他一夜之間成為高手。相反，風行烈卻被靳冰雲出賣，成為大魔頭龐班（郭政鴻飾）的練功爐鼎，結果龐班練成絕世魔功。風行烈卻武功盡失，更被龐班追殺，險境中幸得韓柏相救。

情義兩難存
韓柏和失散的生父虛若無（許紹雄飾）大將軍相認。虛若無更將韓柏引薦到朱元璋（高雄飾）面前，自此，韓柏飛黃騰達。

另邊廂，原來龐班正是當年元朝的國師，他苦練魔功，密謀復國，並選了風行烈為領導同胞的王者。於是，他把風行烈迫到絕路，讓他深切體會到在朱元璋統治底下，蒙古族人被迫害的慘況，讓風行烈揹起民族的責任。風行烈要顛覆明室江山，韓柏卻是朱元璋身邊紅人，二人的矛盾立場，逐漸顯現。

覆雨劍．翻雲刀
風行烈知道要復國，最大的障礙是韓柏。韓柏的翻雲刀法，出神入化，而且他接掌了浪翻雲（姜大衛飾）的江湖第一幫：怒蛟幫。風行烈要打勝他，並無勝算。此時，龐班道出覆雨劍的秘密。原來覆雨劍乃王者之劍，內藏絕世武功：戰神圖錄。

開啟戰神圖錄，要倚靠「劍心通明」這種上乘心法，修練到「劍心通明」境界的，當今武林唯秦夢瑤（佘詩曼飾）一人。然而夢瑤乃慈航靜齋大弟子，亦是明室江山的樑柱。風行烈唯有以愛情為手段，打動夢瑤。

同室操戈
朱元璋步入垂暮之年，明室中，最有才能者是燕王朱棣（麥包飾）。於是，風行烈利用離間計，嫁禍朱棣行刺父皇，令朱元璋對朱棣下格殺令。誰不知太孫允炆（李天翔飾）早已勾結了蒙古人，他才是內奸。

允炆登基，下令禁軍圍捕朱棣，韓柏、夢瑤拼死突圍，保護朱棣離開京師。允炆委任風行烈為削藩主帥，朱棣成立靖難軍，演變成明室內訌，同室操戈。

這時的風行烈已修練成覆雨劍法，武功比韓柏的翻雲刀更高，兩雄相遇，誰勝誰負？江山又會落入誰人之手？

--the part where he took back his ancestors 忽必烈 bones and SO LO TIN(spear). And praying to Long Live God (长生天〕。

--Fung Huang-lit is now the Mogolian King ( 蒙古大汗). The person standing beside the King (大汗〕is pong pan (庞斑).

okay ppl, i know all in chinese is very boring, but try to read k, juz trying to keep trach of wat i have watch so i put this up..hehe..:p
anyway, pls enjoy...for those who like raymond lam fung can go this website, this is his personal website k. --> http://www.xanga.com/Raymond_Lam

jus to encourage

2006-03-28T23:24:00.000-08:00

Yo, people(s)! The mid-year exam and prelium oral & listening exam is coming soon...
So, here i wish that everybody will get good grades for their mid-year and will pass all subjects!
And everthing goes well in your path, do not be discouraged by a little steback , what's most important is that, you know how to stand up and learn from your mistakes! :)
So, all the best for your mid-year and prelium oral & listening exam!!!! WORK HARD & PLAY HARD!

All The Thing You Grown Up With, Are All The Things You Can't Leave Behind. Watching Time Evolves Constantly With Changes, As You Leave With The One Thing That Matters... -javier"DeMarcus"Guevara

okay, i know is not related, anyway jus read it and leave a comment k. :)

Fallen angel

2006-02-07T17:30:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! This is suppose to be a fallen angel blog, but i just cant find any blogskins that i like, and also lazy to go and do a blog.. then i want my blog to have sth related to angel.then i watch thic anime, D.N.Angel, and i really like it, so i deceided to put it in. (eileen help me) so just 将就一下. (hehe..sorry ms jeya..noe cannot write chi, but just hope you dont mind. :p) Below are some quotes that is written by John Milton, i think is really great, you all should read it.

Which way shall I fly
Infinite wrath and infinite despair?
Which way I fly is hell; myself am hell;
And in the lowest deep a lower deep,
Still threat’ning to devour me, opens wide,
To which the hell I suffer seems a heaven. -John Milton

A good book is the precious life-blood of a master-spirit, embalmed and treasured up on purpose to a life beyond life. -John Milton